I was attacked by someone I trusted. I didn’t know what to do. I felt so dirty,the smell, the taste. I tried to hide my face under makeup. I want to be left alone. My mind is racing. If I cry they will ask what’s wrong. Are they going to judge me? Think it’s somehow my fault. Did I cause this? The rumors in school,will I lose my friends,will they whisper when I walk by. Will guys think I am easy?
I prayed, God help me. I calmed down and God showed me I did nothing wrong. Who do I trust to help me. I talked to my Mom and Dad. It took all they had not to go crazy. With every option I played out the outcome the worst thing that could happen.
If I decide to turn him in I lose friends, destroy a family, say good by to all the hard work of my friends and I on this big project. Everyone looks at me differently.
If I decide not to tell,I have to be around him often, can I do that or am I to afraid. Would he do it to someone else? Could I live with that?
I am young I shouldn’t have to deal with this. I know before I can even begin to heal I have to pray for him and his family. I have to forgive. The hurt and fear will take time to overcome, I can do this.