The time has come that I must make a living for my family. It has been almost three years since my husband passed away. I moved my family across country, back to Texas to be closer to my relatives. My children are settled in and life has become normal again.
I looked everywhere for jobs and filled out over 200 applications, looking for a way to support my family. In a nutshell, the reason for not hiring me had nothing to do with my skills. It was that I am a single mom with a teen at home. I had no choice but to go it on my own. God said for me to write. I was not a risk taker, especially with two daughters to support. God said “Believe in the gifts I have given you. Take my hand and step out on faith. You are not alone, I have you. Just don’t let go of my hand and believe in me.” I prayed so hard. I fought with God, how long can we go without income? Don’t let me loose the home where my children feel safe. I even prayed God wouldn’t make me.
I wrote a book and published it. God spoke again and said now write a screenplay and send it to Beverly Hills. Again, I fought with God. Doubting myself and my abilities. God said, “I have prepared you for many years. You are ready. I have gone before you and made the way. Trust in me.” I followed instructions. My screenplay, Journey of Innocence Lost, made the official selection of the Beverly Hills Film Festival 2018.
Why do I continue to fight God and not believe in myself? In my mind I still want to jump back onto the safer path. I keep telling myself as long as I see God at work, I’m gonna be ok. When Satan starts to cause me doubt, I close my eyes and repeat “Faith of the Father.”
Thank you to those who have sent me encouraging emails. I enjoy talking with all of you. Praying for others comforts me and I thank you for allowing me the opportunity pray for you. Please be assured that if you send me an email, the answers come from only me. I am not going to send you anything unless you ask. That’s not how I roll. My ministry is to be here for you and give you encouragement and pray for you.
Remember “Faith of the Father”