The past five days, I have been surrounded by filmmakers, directors, producers, actors, cinematographers, writers, editors and the ambiance of Hollywood. We listened and shared amazing stories. The wealth of knowledge and experience here is mind blowing.
For me personally, this festival was so much more than a contest. I learned a lot about myself. The past three years since my husband died, I had become withdrawn. I focused on making sure my children were settled and finding a way to provide for my family. I had no desire to get out and be social. I was slipping into a depression and did not even know it.
When God nudged me to submit my screenplay, I thought “Sure why not”. I did not think I would actually get selected. When I got the email, shock did not begin to explain my emotions. When I made my travel arrangements, it sank in. I came up with every excuse not to come.
The first day of the festival, I realized, I had a problem. I was like the puppy that didn’t know how to play. It had been years since I engaged in a social environment like this. Before I married, I was involved in everything. I was the one that never met a stranger. When I married, I stepped back and my husband was the instigator. Over the years I had lost my social skills and became withdrawn.
This festival has given me back something I thought I had lost. I found out, it is okay for me to follow my dream and do something for me. I learned how to interact with people again. Being in a room with people with the same passions that you have gives you a lot to talk about. People were truly interested in me and my work. I laughed a lot, shared special moments and made great new friends. I can return home with a new confidence in myself and renewed fire in writing.
Special thanks to Beverly Hills Film Festival. You will always have a special place in my heart! We will see you next year!